It feels like I have a knife in my stomach

Do you know that feeling? it feels like I've been stabbed in my stomach and heart. I cant stop thinken: "Am I not good enough?".
No thats not the reason. The hole thing was my own fault, but I tried and tried, and Im try and try, and would never back down..

Sorry that im not perfekt.

It just because it hurts so bad, when you scolding me. I try and I'm trying, but I'll never be perfect. And I cry because of that. Life would be much easier if I just was perfect. But sorry, i'm not perfect..

My new shoes.

Every girl love new shoes. I think shoes is a part of a definition of you. What kind of shoes do I have? My nw shoes is white with some kind of claps on, and they are high-heeled. Who kind of person am I?
I love white, because I feel feminine in white. But the claps says that I'm also a girl there love parties and rock 'n' roll.
So look on peoples shoes. Maybe you can see, what I can see.

Maybe one day you would see, what I had discovered.